maybe we were too insensitive.. but now i understands how my mum feels. and i feel sad that i m not such a great friend after all. maybe so lousy that u dun feel somfortable telling me. i'm so sad. i cant help it but to cry from inside! it's that sense of guilt and reprimanding of myself again.. AHHHHHHHHHHH

everyone in td! jia you and thnx all those who helped one way or another! av,emcee,performers,sc helpers...

rained @ 11:58 PM

talking to ronald last night def made me had a clearer idea about christianity. but i still got so may question marks. haha. yea, he passed me a book today. think i'll try to read it.
anyway, i wrote her a letter to wish her good luck for her op. and i do hope she'll be fine and blessed. cant help but cry when she told me to contact her mother to ask about the result of the op. but i rmb ron told me not to cry in front of her. i really hope she's fine in there now. i understand how hungry she acty is. i was so hungry during dinner. imagine her not eating the whole day. jia you girl.. ur illness might be incurable. but maybe u can ask god for help. he'll spread it from spreading at least. i kepp praying for her. but all will be so uncertain till she comes out. bless her bless her!
today j2 celebration. sorry av for the last min changes. poor communication. my fault. yea, but alll was okie lah. got j2 draw, and celebrate and got song dedications. thnx all those who help! love you guys! went dinner with claire, beng, natha, gp, joel, justin. yea. hahaa! and natha premarital sex is wrong whatever ur chim chim explanation lah. but yea, i love my 30th sc!

pls bless her..

rained @ 10:55 PM

god please bless my friend.. i dunno if you can ever hear my prayer. but if you do, please bless her. she's created by you and she brought joy to everyone around you. please do not take her away with you so soon. bless her and allow her to be fine and continue living.. i know's she's scared. so please take away her fear. i know she wants to live on. so please fulfil her wish and see her through this test. god please do bless her..
it's really true that when you die you cant take anything away with you. so relationship with people and preparing yourself for eternal life is important. i very much wish one day i will find my way and everyone else too..
be strong live on. and god will bless you. dun be scared. ronald told me god will bless all the kind hearted people. and i believe he will=)

same to you carmen!

rained @ 9:32 PM

hey! so busy this week! got td rehearsal and stuff! i really hope it'll be great and jia you my committee members! i know all of you are working hard! i love you guys!

yea, our wr was not good. and so busy lah! with op and wr to do! and so many hw! esp chem! raaaaar! sounds like i m calling bekah! haha. and my legs not getting better! like worse.

yea, and though i just see my friends on mon! i'm missing them again! i miss jey! and yingtong too!
and=( i just read carmen's blog about her condition. and carmen! pls dun be scared. i know u'll be brave and put on a fight! nothing can put you down! you are that kindda girl to me! one who is clear of what she wants and mature and never will give up! because u just hate to be defeated! so this time it's the same! you must put on a brave brave fight and be fine okie? because there's so many people out there who loves you! so put on the fight for them. and it's like you just realize the importance of your friends and family. and actually spending more time with them. dun forsake all this okie? and i really will be VERY VERY sad if anything happens to you. i'm serious! i love you girl. so please be strong! not only for yourself but for everyone around you! GOD PLEASE BLESS HER!

and huixian too.. takkaire of yourself and be fine! GOD PLEASE BLESS HER TOO!

rained @ 10:46 PM

yea! today went for jey mei lunch!! took lotsa pics! and talk quite alot! i really love them! our lunch every fortnight or month okie? we were taking pics in the toilet and a really friendly auntie keeps talking and asking us about camera! i think it's nice that she's trying to catch up with the generation!=) but she ask a bit too much haha! yea, went mos and swensens and eat eat eat!

aft tt jan went off for interactive then went with waibin and eunice and evad to see felicia's bag! haha. aft that evad and i went osos! haha! i crash their osos celebration for yiwei! haha! evad and i are crashers! she crash my pri sch i crash her osos! haha!she's so sad lah. went early but everybody was late! so we just waited for evryone to come and she need to go off! haha.. dunno i was so sad when she was leaving! whahaha! i was behaving like a small kid! i stayed on and we ate pizza hut! haha! called the wrong carmen and i was like u dunno what is OSOS?!!?!! haha.. yea, saw val and carmen aft so long! i really miss my lab partners! esp my tickling partner! miss the days we tickle each other and share things in audi=)) yea, must go study together yea!? and find miss goh! yupp had loadsa fun with osos!!
xiao wen was gay talking about ki then i was like stop it lah confucious says bla bla bla(rubbish)...
then aft that got this old man came he said" just now u said sth about confucious right...?" i tot he was going to scold me for saying rubbish or sth.. " dun say too much about him or u'll get confused!-__-"" so lame lah!! funny old man! haha! think we were so noisy! think we piss the couples who are dating and wanting a quiet place! hahha!
yea, kindda envy osos sometimes. like they can still meet up quite often! i want guidess outing soon! my dearest guides sisters=))must go for the chalet we organize kaes! haha!

yea!!!!!! happy day!!!=) meeting up with all my old friends=)))

AND HAPPY BIRD DAY YIWEI!!

rained @ 11:57 PM

heyy, yest sprained my leg because i was teaching cm and hx mass dance! i always sprain for the wrong reason.. like the lao ying zhuo xiao ji -__-" so silly lah can? i heard 3 cracks before i fell! haha. daddy and mummy chose bball over me lah! i was so sad.. thankyou all those who showed your concern. i m fine now. haha! i can walk abit le! =)

yupp today had gm.. updates on committee stuff and orientation. yupp, i love my sc! we're so cool ppl who are going to leave a legacy=) showcase the mass dance! it's so nice and sei! may and rebecca can dance real well! guys will nose bleed! hahhaa!

i just saw evad blog.. DUNMAN HIGH NDP CELEBRATION VIDEO!=)
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i miss all the teachers and celebrations=) the teachers never fail to encourage us. and dunman high is the place we always feel the safest and most at home! though with all the strict discipline, come on once i was out of dunman high i was never expose to this kind of education ever again.
i must say i m really glad i went there and was taught all the right attitude in life. To zi ai and everything. will i ever get to see teachers who retired like mdm ting, mdm tay, miss goh, miss wong and mr kiw ever again? i really miss them and miss fang mr lu miss pear and loadsa other teachers! i cant wait to go back on teachers day and give them all a big hug. and i still rmb all the talks teachers and mr sng give us before our o levels to encourage us. really nostalgic!=( the teachers DO care! and dunman high is really lucky to have mr sng as our principal=) he always try to get close to us. he's a teen and he makes an effort to get close to us like singing our song..=) i really love him as a principal!! look at mr ng's one! he composed a song de ming bao bei! though it got all my hairs standing! it's really really sweet=)))

and tuigee is like behind snapping pics! i remember he'll be present for all celebration just to take pics for us=) what will dunman high be without him as a photographer, pe teacher, gardener, moral and civics tutor!
i really hope i was there la!! like mr and said though de ming is a school it is really more like a big family, we made alot of zhen xin peng you and we're zhen xin ying xiong=)

i cant stop crying!

I REALLY REALLY MISS AND LOVE DUNMAN HIGH ALOT ALOT!!!! I REALLY HOPE TIME CAN GO BACK AND I CAN STAY IN DUNMAN HIGH FOREVER WITH ALL THE TEACHERS AND FRIENDS!! BUT WE CANT REVERSE TIME AND WE HAVE TO MOVE ON.. I AM BLESSED FOR HAVING SUCH GREAT MEMORIES BECAUSE I WAS ONCE A DUNMANIAN! THANKYOU GOD!

ohh and the 4h teachers' Day dance is nice! hey jia you whoever in that class i saw yoke san=) reminds me of 2f's performances during each teachers' Day! so sorry guys! i failed to organise outing for very long le! we'll have one during the hols okie? i promise!

rained @ 8:53 PM

yea! the day before was nat celebration! was a HIT! well done nat comm=) everything was very nice and entertaining! i love 30sc! teachers' Day is coming up NEXT! jia you comm! we can do it!! okie, yupp aft tt went to eat lunch at bugis with 1406.. took np then the guys had to go. the girls went shopping.. haha! dunno why we were in a cranky mood and was really tired.. aft tt met hp and then went to meet claire! went marina sq. omg! the ppl there were like so many. imagine ppl queueing up everywhere. even for fast food. we queued up 1 and a half hour. just for KFC! haha. 1st time i have to queue so long for fast food. how fast! yupp, saw 4b! and pig came to find me with yu xuan! she's going home today le. yupp. so we took pics and they queueed up with us to entertain us. they wanted to buy drinks but in the end they went off at the last min to buy drink at supermarket coz we were going to be late for fireworks.. we went out and catch the firework just in time. but we got cheated to where the firework was. we tot we had a good view. saw chloe and her sis too! was beautiful
aft that claire and i finally ate our banditto! haha! was delicious. but the whipped potato killed the taste! haha! whaty good use of 30cents right claire? hyuk hyuk! poor ping missed the fireworks! we went to find her and proceeded back home! yea, we talked and ate supper and then slept.. woke up next morn. had breakfast at bedok then went ping's house. talked in the toilet for like 1 hour then bathed and went parkway for lunch. ate mee rebus! then the tang yuan then the ice cream! i thnk i was going to become fatty bom bom. haha! aft that went to the stadium! woo so excited! hadnt been to ndp since p5 i think. yupp. had fun taking photos and putting tatoos, singing national day songs. i love SINGAPORE! the performance was great! alot of firework this year! yea and the firework is really beautiful. then we took 196 to bedok for dinner. or maybe supper. haha then aft that we bid goodbye! had a great 2 days with u guys! love u butties! and we are going to organise guides chalet! hp the pres, claire the secretary and i m treasurer. haha! =) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPORE! and i m gonna miss outdoor stadium too!

rained @ 7:42 PM

talked to jevon. better understanding now=)

rained @ 2:21 AM

yea, i was polishing my badge, wiping my boots and preparing my uniform just now! what can i say except i miss guides so much! and i feel so proud that i m going to march later at the morning parade later although it is only gonna be a very short while. gives me a chance to put on my uniform once again!=) I'M A GIRL GUIDE!!**
okie today, suppose to hand in written report lah. i was kinnda angry with jevon! he always have so much problems! as in maybe he's real sick or sth but like since sch started 3 times a week? i think u should really build up ur immunity system. and even if i m sick, i'll make sure that i have the responsibility to send the file to the email of my team mate. and not that i dint tell u leh. i sent u the email twice and contact u the whole night and inform u twice again over the phone. hai, i really dunno what to say about you. and like. u think coming to sch is a waste of time then u dun come and pon and dunno what lah. come class late coz u cant find classroom. coz u too engross in ur art work. reallyy! I DUN UNDERSTAND U. and i feel simply irritated when i cant contact you. ur house phone like kindda useless. no ones pick up till after 12am-__- i wonder where u all are most of the time. hai. maybe there's sth wrong with ur family and maybe it's my fault because i dint ask. u wont see this but i'll try to understand but can u pls be less WIERD? as in at least come sch and i dunno dun give lame excuses for your MISSING IN ACTION. but yea, being the group leader is enough to pull all my hair out. with 2 members always ponning!
ALso, zahir keeps skipping lessons too. kindda irritating.
okie, anyway on a happier note, claire and huiping can sleep over=) thnx mummy. haha! but gonna be really squeezy! my sis was like izzit the 2 who took super pai sei with u? that's evad and jan! haha she saw our lame pics.. yupp, and watching fireworks with claire and going out with ping before tt. ANd we're going for parade the next day! and cg lunch aft celebration! ohh i cant wait!!..

rained @ 1:04 AM

hey! came back from pig's chalet yest! 1st night. pig's dad came to fetch ma at around 830 pm at night. Saw her taiwan friend' she's called yixuan aliison aka hu li! yea, went to pig's house 1st. to take her things. 1st time at pig's house. yea, then just laze around on the bed and went chalet. she keeps thinking she forgot to bring something. sure enough towel so she went up again and came down with not only towel but mangosteen and dunno what.. yea, we went to the chalet. ate mangosteen and talked abit. then jia jia joined us after that too. pig cleaned the aircon coz she says it's not cold. we played a few rounds of bridge and was so tired and we fell asleep. woke up in the middle of the night to put on jacket and track pants. the blanket sucks lah. so many holes. make us so cold. woke up next morn feeling quite uncomfortable. watched wang zi bian qing wa=D i love it man! after watching so many times. yupp then after that i measure my temperature and i am down with a fever. went to eat breakfast aft that at kopitiam. then lao da joined us. jia went off for her climbing competition. the rest of us went back to the chalet and i slept again. then when we woke up we went to fetch pig's friends and then brought them back to chalte and we went to buy bbq food at white sands. me and pig did most of the shopping. aft that we went back to the chalet and i slept again. but felt much better after that. yea, i was woken up by the screams and the "piang" sound! someone broke a bottle of soya sauce and the whole room very stinky aft that. we went to buy another bottle of sauce for the marinating of chickens. the rest went to www! it was free admission because of some bikini world competition. from our room we could see the inside of www. aft that bernerd and his partner + 2 other friends came too. we played a bit of play station. and then we went to fetch janice=) yea, so we wanted to start fire but started raining. after that we went back chalet and just watch super band, going down once in a while to eat food .. we were like wooing! and everything! haha. very high. and mi lu bing won! haha. i dun mind mi lu bing or soul winning lah. so it's okie=) piggy's AI XIN TOAST was so nice! haha.. yea, aft that yu zhuo played guitar! woo! and we sang while he plays. so nice! haha. except bernerd was so out of tune. yea, aft that pig's dad came and we gotta go home. we took pics with the taiwan ppl again! kelly, lao da, xiao mu, da hong, mickey... i forgot their names. yea, aft that the taiwan girls wanna take pics with bernerd. he was like so shy and diao cox aft tt he asked us eh y they all wanna take pic with me. jan was like what u wanna us to say. ahha. he's damn funny. and he was like. y someone throw pillow at me just now-__- and he said in front of his buddy. i not very close to him and i accidentally brought him to eat beef. we were like he understand eng? he said yah but he's not bashing me up now, so...-__- haha! and he closed his eyes in evey single pic we took. but he's quite cute lah. yea1 and i enjoyed talking to jan and pig on the car! haha. we typed pig an sms to ask her to bring bernerd and his partner home 1st so we can talk more! i love my jappies=) things dint change much and will never do with pig organizing outings now and then. and yes we really need to catch up. haha! pig and i bluffed her friends that we are sisters and they were like yah ur smiles look alike-__- and ppl start calling me jie jie. haha. so rubbish lah. we dun even look alike. haha! yea! i chioing wr now.. i cant contact jevon.. just hope he will do the editing and add in his part.

rained @ 8:37 PM

today i went back dunman high!! soooo nostalgic! i really do miss dunman high. shared my experience with my juniors. and i think i do not regret my choice in choosing tjc. can develop both academically and my personal skills. yupp, i REALLY MISS DHS ALOT! i dun mind going through o levels over and over again. to juniors out there. if u think u're having a very difficult time, trust me it's not that difficult if u set your mind to study for o. u can do well quite easily. and make your right choice of jc. i think it is better if u stay on in the same jc after 1st 3 months. talk about miss fang and miss goh and i really do miss them alot. seems like miss fang is teaching alot of the sec 4 classes! all i can say is lucky them=) yea, the dunman high doll is so cute! she's my hp wallpaper now. hahaa!!

yea, at night got leo club investiture. quite cool lah. they did alot of meaningful activities and also, helped alot of organisations. i find it interesting when they started roaring. hahaaa! so funny. ROAR ROAR ROAR! then i learnt hand signs for "there can be miracles when you believe" song. haha. kindda cool! the last one i learnt was in pri sch lah.

yea, and da jie is so childish! she's having a competition with er jie on the nicest wardrobe because er jie asked her not to use her bags. she bought a $99 skirt which she wont usually spend such money on. haha! so lame. then she said, u better ask er jie to raise white flag coz she will lose-__- childish! then she's so lucky. her soul friend gave her tix for superband! but i know her plan. she's going as soul supporter but going to shout and support lucify! lousy loh she! hahha.. tml got exco meeting and gotta rush our written report!!!!

rained @ 1:33 AM

today.. tended the teachers' day dedication booth. so silly sitting there with 1 small table. aft that went roxy square with wai kit to look at souvenir. we went to this shop that we both like because of the cheap price and variety! and eastina and eugene managed to find 1 emcee and 1 ta class for teachers' from 33 and 1 from 3406! that makes it 5 auditions if ics wanna perform. not bad. betteday audition. and 1 performance from adi's friend, better than the 1st audition. haha.

this week cant go out with jeymeis. anyway, janicee lamdeedum good luck for ur piano exam grade 8!! loveya!

ohhh evadne! i like mi lu bing and soul!! i dun want lucify! they are so scary.. haha.

should i go festival of praise?

rained @ 11:40 PM