today! had fellowship!:) and i'm so glad god arranged it specially for me! i think i learnt alot:) kenneth's arrival helped us learnt more:) doing things with our heart because we are doing it for christ not just for men. imagine us serving god in all that we do. i know it's difficult but HE'S the best motivation for me. and my resolution for 2007. other than doing well for studies and council. more importantly is to evangelise and to love and care more for people around me. to listen and help them whenever i can. doing things for god is much more significant than doing it for myself.
it strucks me when kenneth said why izzit when we talk about new year resolution all we think about is for ourselves and not for god. i should start thinking about things more spiritually and less personally. our tongue is so evil and poisonous. how izizt that we can use this same tongue to praise god and to gossip about others. we contradict ourselves. seawater and fresh water can never flow seperately in the same path. also, if jesus could die for us on the cross and forgive us of all sins, who are we not to forgive others. who are we to judge others when we ourselves are sinners.
i pray for my council. i pray for my friends. i pray for my family. i pray for myself to submit to authority, to treat things with more humility and less procrastination. to love more and judge less, to fellowship more and gossip less. to fear less and stand up for righteousness. it's so not easy. but in your strength, not mine, i can..
being a christian doesnt mean my life is easier. instead it became much more difficult. because i have to constantly remind myselves how to improve and how i should handle things to be more christ like. but, being a christian my life has been changed by god. moulded by him to learn to be a better person. and even though things are tough god is always here for me. so it's not so unbearable. god always give me challenges with solutions. but most importantly i know my purpose for doing everything.
rained @ 9:08 PM
my butt hurts coz i cycled 15km yest for dualthlon! sorry may coz of my slow cycling.. we got no. 14! hahaha! dun sound that bad huh? =)
anw, yest was such a tiring day. acty it's not that tiring. just because i was very tired physically so it was a tiring day. made the chop. went back sch to chopped some. then saw the clan master elections. then went out with scip ppl. then aft that went to jiu mu's house. and i basically slept there the whole time. so anti social. but i was really tired! hahaha
anw, :) i love how everything is kindda back to normal. no more tension or negativity. and thank god for allowing ppl to talk and clear misunderstandings. and i believe seed is planted even if it looks really bad. opposite of love is not hate. it's indifference.
i'll pray for all my friends to be okay. physically and mentally. dear lord please bless them.
rained @ 12:55 PM
lord i need directions from you! thanks for sending me people who could support me! lord! i know i learn through falls and i thank you for not forsaking me no matter what happens. u know me the best! thanks for timely reminders about everything! about what i should do and what i shouldnt and also blessing me that though i make mistakes here and there, everything turned out okie. i'll learn and be a better person coz of YOU! i love u my dear LORD!
dear lord thanks for the relationships not spoilt! coz everything seems okie now! must be you and ur plan! coz it seems really fine now. i believed u made us learn:) thanks lord! ur plan are just so great! and gets more and more amazing as more is revealed! and for the bible study group u give me! really dun make me lose touch and i'm SO GLAD lord! i find delight in YOU!:)
dear lord, thanks. i'm embracing all the challenges u gave me coz i know no matter how horrible the situation is, u're still here for me. but my friends might not have allowed ur presence to be fully in control of their lives. please bless them my lord that they will know you soon and seek you in all the troubles that they are going through! my life has changed coz of you. i really hope theirs too!!
rained @ 10:41 PM
lord i pray that ur healing hands will fall upon her. lord i thank u for the scar on my nose for i understand how she feels. lord i know u make everything happen for a reason. as i look back now i understand ur purpose for making them happen. though we dun know ur purpose for this incident now, i believe we would someday. lord i pray u'll bless her the strength to carry on. lord please bless my best friend. please she needs you so much in ur life now. please open her heart to you. i know only u can provide her the comfort and strength to heal her emotionally. lord. please make it come true. please use me in any way to fulfil ur plan. amen.
rained @ 11:12 PM
:) yest was road run! came in 48! may may! dun be sad! despite being sick u came in 23rd and that's very good already! after that went to had pizza hut lunch with 14o6! :) hhaha i really enjoy the company of my classs! we talked about our sec sch and silly jokes as usual! hhaha:) i am so glad and thankful to god for putting me in 1406!
after that went home. then talked to steph online and i'm off again to meet butties! haven seen 2 of them for so long! at least now we're updated about each other's life!:) be happy always my butties! i love both of youuu! :) friday friday!
then i met stephy! went back billy bombers again. they must think we're wierd keep going there with so many different friends. hahaa! :) anw, i just love stephy!! i'll fall in love with her if i'm a guy. hahaha! i feel so happy after talking to her coz we talk like best friends and sisters in god's love not just like council mates. i just love positivity man! it doesnt make me have headache like that night when we talked about so much negative stuff.
friends point out each other's mistakes and help each other grow to be better people. friends care, love and forgive. i'm glad we're able to do that to each other stephy. anw, things are accelerating so fast.
lord i just pray for love, tolerance, understanding and forgiveness to be blessed upon us. that we will judge less and accept more. to discern what is right and wrong. and that no broken relationships are developed. instead through this we're able to a be better and stronger team. lord that none of us have forgotten how to love like you did. that we will seek you for strength and comfort. that we wont ever drift away from you!
and lord i'm so glad u gave me and my brother a chance to talk last night. though he was not immensely concentrating! i've updated him about my life! and i feel so thankful for all that u've put in my life! i embrace all the difficulties and challenges! and praise you for all the little things u gave me to pull me through all the tests! i love youuu my LORD!!!
rained @ 1:00 PM
lord please bless my friends who need comfort and directions from you. lord please bless that i'll continue to grow in you everyday and not backslide or distant from ur love. lord i know that though i am prosecuted and lost, you will not forsake me. please bless that though my life is upside down now. it will be upwards right when the time comes. that lord i will grow to be a better and stronger person by the end of this test. lord i want to to magnify and glorify your name. please use me to fulfil your purpose whenever i can and only then will i be complete in you. and lord please remind me whenever i commit a slightest sin so that i can improve to be more loving and christ like. i love u my lord:)
lord i believe u take people away with u when your purpose for them in life has been fulfiled. though some of them take away their own life. u wont allow it to happen unless it's in ur plan. steph is right. it's not up to me to judge. it's up to you. lord. i just thank u for allowing them to come into our life though they might just be an acquaintance or someone who has personally touched our life. i know all i can do is to pray for the family members & friends for u to mend their broken hearts.the fate of the dead is in ur hand. i wont know the answer till i meet u in heaven my lord.
v day is coming! i was talking to rebecca that day about singlehood or being attached. it's all in god's will. HE will arrange for the right guy to appear in my life. and i will listen to god when such guy ever appear and make sure that i am physically emotionally and spiritually prepared:) thanks kenneth! i really love my senior! he's not only my senior, my friend, but really like a brother of mine in christ.
AND i miss gor! he's back from camp only once a week and i have so much to tell him everytime but i dunnno where to start. he got situation test this week. lord pls bless him that he may pass it with flying colours. that he'll learn alot more about leadership.
anw, go green day on sunday! had 1406 outing after that! i love 1406:) thanks god for putting me in teejaye with great class and pdp and friends! jc life has made me grow so much as a person! esp after i know christ!
rained @ 10:17 PM
what happened yest night affected my mood in the morning. but i was okie after that thanks to the people god sent to me=) huixian's letter made me cry coz i read the phrase about god allowing us to go through things so that we could understand how other people feel. sometimes we do not know god's will or purpose in doing these things. but we will someday.
stephy for telling me it's not for me to judge. ronald for listening and claire for your prayer. coz i really did not know what to pray. but what u prayed for was what i wanted to pray for.
today i guess i learnt alot. coz it seems like a stormy day not only for me but my friends too. i simply love 1406 coz though my day was bad all the silly jokes made in class made me smile=)
we sat on the floor for gp today! felt like a family:) today seems like a really long day. coz of so many things that happened.
ms norsheha came to me and said i looked tired and asked me to take care. it was very heart warming.
i thank u god for being right here even though it was so tough. i thank you for providing me comfort through friends and you brought a smile back on my face before the end of the day. i know u hold everything in your hands. i know there are certain things that are not within our control. coz god u are the judge, the only one who knows the answer. i wont know answers to many questions till i meet u in heaven. but i trust u my lord that all decisions u make are the best decisions for us coz u LOVE us. i know i can only pray and u will make things come true if it were to be. I LOVE YOU MY LORD!!:)
rained @ 11:04 PM
oooh!!:)
i think angel and mortal makes my college life more fun coz got sth to anticipate! anddd! my council angel is so fun LAH! he's pipping hot can? whahaha! and i know my angel alan alrdy! whahaha! his letters are longgg longggg! and my mortal dint reply my 2nd letter too! i'm gonna give up hope. hhahha! but at least i still have my angels and council mortal! hoho!:)
yea, then saw sidz today! he's here in teejaye for h3! whahaha! he's still as spastic as EVER! he wants endo sensei to meet jappies but piggy they all dun even know her lah!-__-
yea! and mr b and miss b (justin and ME!) going to plan for council bachelor and bachelorette outing! HOHOO! how fun! coz my friends all pangseh me alrdy for other dates! so i'm organizing one! all council swinging singles! come for our fun filled party if u have nowhere to go! we have bessie joining our b gang already! places are limited due to popular demand! so grab ur place in b gang FAST!
ANWWWWWWW,
temasek idol 1st audiition TML!!! gonna be so funnn:) and our batch alot of talentsss tooo!
yea, i love god for everything he has put in my life! be it tough challenges or happy moments! he allowed them to happen and see me through all! Also, people with different personalities so that he teaches me to accept, learn from them and love them because they are creation of god! i really wanna go church soon! haven been to any service since christmas!:) easter:) but god's presence is strong in my life! i love to spread his love to everyone!:)
i LOVE all of youuu:)
rained @ 9:10 PM
http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/viewmovie.htmlkupped from yulin's blog! i find it very nice:) take a few minutes to view it!:) sure to brighten up your day!
anw, dint do well for both my mock spas! feel so sad lah! hope wont happen on actual spa! but on a happier note! finally people starts writing to me for my angel and mortal game!! HAHAA!
morning i finally received my angel's letter from 0106! yea! so it was quite efficient. he replied twice and i replied twice today. and i think i know who he is coz jessica was holding my letter and standing near a 0106 guy-__- hahaha! but i never know. coz in the end always turn out to be wrong.
then my council angel! hahaha! i have fun accusing everyone to be my angel. i think it's justin or claire coz they are so suspicious. HOHO! stupid justin acted as so shocked when i accused him to be my angel. but in the end i dunnno is he acting or lying. hahaha! then i saw my message to my angel in claire's locker! so lame lah-__- hahaha!
anw, today also helped out abit at recycling. our structure is quite pretty:) then also tuition wth raoda. feel quite sad coz like she obviously copied answer. the answers in practice 5 appear in practice 4 and like totally no link with the passage lah. really hope she'll be able to stay more focus and be more hardworking. it's her psle this year and i really want to help her. but the kids make me happy coz they are so stress free and happy:)
tml shopping for cny cloths and cutting hair! hp bill last month was $100 plus. mummy wants to deduct money from my ang bao! but i wanna share my ang bao money with 1406 to buy TYS! hahaha!
rained @ 11:15 PM
