Dear Teaching Scholars/Award Holders,

PARTICIPATION IN MOE SCHOOL ATTACHMENT PROGRAMME 2010

        Warmest greetings! I am Ellen, Human Resource Executive from Scholars' Talent Management Unit, MOE.

2        We are pleased to inform you that you will be attached to the following school in July 2010:

East Coast Primary School
8 Chai Chee Lane
Singapore 469031

Principal         :         Mr Tan Siew Tiong

Vice Principal(s)  :         Mdm Lela Bte Shamsuhadi

School Tel No.:  62447652 / 62447657

School Website: http://www.eastcoastpri.moe.edu.sg

        We encourage you to visit the school’s website to gain a better understanding of the school’s mission/vision, key achievements and strategic thrusts, as well as the student profile before your attachment.  

3        The key objectives of the School Attachment programme are:
-        to expose the scholars/ award holders to the school environment;
-        to keep the scholars/ award holders updated of the key educational initiatives and developments in schools;
-        to enable the scholars/ award holders to learn how initiatives and policies are implemented in schools; and
-        to provide the scholars/ award holders hands-on teaching experience.

4        The entire attachment comprises the following:

·        A briefing session on 2 July 2010 (Friday) to better prepare you for your attachment.
·        A 3-week attachment to a school from 6 - 23 July 2010.
·        A feedback session on 28 July 2010 (Wednesday). Selected groups of scholars will be invited to share on their attachment experiences, learning points as well as their projects with the MOE Management.

Details of the briefing and feedback session will be provided later.

5        During your attachment, you can look forward to opportunities to engage in classroom observations and experience classroom teaching. In addition, you will be assigned to work on interesting and challenging project(s) to broaden your horizons and maximise your overall learning experience. You may also be invited to participate in other activities/events in school as well as CCAs, if schedule permits. We wish to highlight that the extent of your involvement in the above activities could vary and is dependent on the school’s current needs and available resources, and the schedule of your teacher-mentors.  You are strongly encouraged to exhibit initiative in participating in various activities and making the best of your attachment with the school.

6        Please refer to Annex A for the particulars of other teaching scholars and award holders who will be attached to the same school. We have also nominated a group leader for each school, who will work closely with us on the administrative arrangements for the coming school attachment (e.g. coordinating the dissemination of key information to group members and collating the group members’ attendance). The attendance sheet, together with the school’s proposed project(s) and attachment schedule will be given to you at a later date. The group leader is expected to collate and submit the consolidated attendance sheet to MOE officers at the feedback session on 28 July 2010.

7        Please click here to acknowledge receipt of this email.  In the meantime, please refer to your respective scholarship officers if you have any doubts.  



Yours sincerely,
Miss Ellen Lim
Human Resource Executive/Scholars’ Talent Management
Personnel Division
Ministry of Education
for Permanent Secretary (Education)



So near home.. I'm the group leader.. and I'm doing it with Koh Li Min!! what's the probability of tt man! only 3 per sch! yay! (: familiar face! Thank God for that! East Coast Primay! here Miss Tan comessss! (:

rained @ 8:42 PM

A short one before i sleep...
Thank you Jesus for seeing me thru a busy exam period...
Really couldnt have done it wout Your strength...
Thank you zc for studying with me, meals, discipline, encouragement and love..
emmeline for being best stayover studying partner...u're like part time A422 stayer alrdy..
dearest neighbour qiqi for all the love and late night sms-es!
kar for buying tori-q yest for us so i could have time spent with my dearest hall frens...
and prayers by all my dear ones in life.. (: carmen, anne, nich, sherine..
and love sms-es too.. kit, fel, ruiyang, anna..
sorry if i miss out anyone. haha!

4 papers in 3 days was crazy. 4 days till next one.. but cant wait to go home to spend time with family during wkend. so must study effective next few days so can enjoy my sat and sun family time.. 1 wkend not back home and i miss them..
and night pm too which i wanna go...
but today was a great day of rest!
1 hour of lunch with dom chuan jeremy at deck was love. laughing at how sui chuan is all the time.. and dom being irritated by my do u want set meal request.. hahaha! jeremy being the same old funny jeremy all the time.. being able to sit down at deck for an hour. eating my meal slowly and drinking fruit juice on the spot feels like such a huge blessing..
then 4 hours of quality sleep..
and run around sch... qi was like "did i hear wrongly? must msg fel alrdy!" hahaha i always find excuse to not run when they asked me. 1st time i take initiative to run by myself. haha! but the weather was so nice after rain.. and everything just felt right for a run. hahaha!
dinner in comm hall.. yea, then visiting lib.. and having emmeline in my room now..
updating my dearest accountability partner carmen over LJ..
and nich sending me songs over msn! my fav heart of a servant song and rmbering all of God's goodness in my life..
such a good rest day like psychologically, physically and spiritually..
tml will start chionging.. one last paper abnormal psych...i will do well..
and i miss SOOOOO many ppl in my life.. like really very much! esp those i haven met in years! like claire neo! claire lim coming back! fay and liz..
catching up time after exams!! june i m all urs my frens!
may is cambodia (: and july is MOE attachment!
then there's rag and all the orientation!
time to go crazy and make new frens..
i m looking forward to everything!

God thank you for being so good in my life. I LOVE YOU! (:
goood night! (:

rained @ 2:27 AM

independence that i wanted. independence that i need. and i know it's only necessary. i got to stop the feeling of dependence. let me learn to be satisfy depending on only you Lord. The only one i need in life.

Jcrc i stepped up according to your will and God you saw me thru. sep and studies, things tt weigh my heart, things tt I have been praying abt.. I submit to you Lord and I know You'll see me thru too.. total dependence on you Lord... studies studies discipline! I do my best and trust you Lord to do the rest. to perform the kind of miracles u did for my chem test... I love you Jesus, pls lift me up, pls see me thru..

Prov 6:9-11
How long will you slumber, O sluggard?
      When will you rise from your sleep?
       ¹⁰ A little sleep, a little slumber,
      A little folding of the hands to sleep—
       ¹¹ So shall your poverty come on you like a prowler,
      And your need like an armed man.


I love proverbs, wisdom tt i need. God speaking wisdom into my life.. I love to lull around, day dreaming, staring at something for a long time, facebooking and finding out how my frens are doing, enjoying the feeling of not doing anything, of sleeping, of not having to worry abt anything, of doing things very very slowly and enjoying the things i m doing, once in a while wanting to escape from many things into my own world.. but exams is round the corner... I got to stop being slack and lazy and having a lack of discipline... Get up and be discipline xiu... you can do it...GO GO XIU!!!!!

rained @ 1:14 PM

love you claire lim... u're always one of the best! (: (:
for all the christian advices i needed to hear so badly...
how can i ever do wout you... (:
i love sykpe, i love you...
muchhhhh love! (:

rained @ 3:09 AM

if u ask me what really is going, i cant explain myself sometimes, sometimes i dunno myself..
i feel very hardened in my heart..
when i feel sad, i dun feel extremely sad..
when i feel happy, i m not exhilarated.
i no longer go to the extremes of emotions i used to feel..
i hope i can be like how i used to be, to be emotional..
at least when i write in my diary i know what i m feeling, what i m happy with what i m disappointed with.
coz right now, being stable in my emotions. sometimes i dunnno wad i m feeling. i dunno wad it all means..
i care, yet i dun really want to care..
i feel things are not right, i want to do sth, yet i dunnno wad to do, i rather leave the things as it is.. or sometimes i choose to avoid and stay in my comfort zone..

i want to hear from God, i pray yet i dun cry out to him..
coz i m not feeling very sad..
it seems like prayers are the same thing over and over again..
desire is impt.. yet i feel i have no deep desire for anything..
i m just contented with no storms in my life.
yet no peace in the silence.. sth's not right. yet nth's done. yet i dunno wad should be done.
i feel quite resigned to fate? feel quite numb of obligations i have to do, so that i can be consistent of a girl i used to be. i dun really know myself now? or maybe i m trying to know myself..
jcrc, studies to glorify God.. shining for God thru my everyday life.. really? am i? sometimes i feel my bro might be right. all for my own achievements.. i am just drifting thru life..

and i think i have become afraid to love..
to really trust and give my heart to anyone..
i m very skeptical abt things..
i used to be able to put myself in my frens' situations.. to cry with them when they tell me sad things tt bother them.. laugh with them if they're happy..
but now i cant. frens tell me things i listen n tt's it. i feel okay even though their situation is bad and dire.. i no longer feel as compassionate.. i feel void of emotions..
there are people in my life who i care alot abt who hurt me before..
and i feel i have not recovered from it totally.. and it's causing me to hurt the people who care abt me..
coz ppl who really care abt me, i feel i take them for granted..
and i cant give back as much.. i just feel uncomfortable. i just want to push them away..
i dun undstd why anyone would still want to be close to me when i have hurt them so much.
maybe it's better that people leave.. at least i know tt we dun really owe each other anything. tt we might have both disappointed each other in some ways.. and it's good we're not close. tt things are good to just leave as it is. no need to confront.. no need to dig out emotions.. and find out who's right or wrong..
it's like even emotional hurt or physical pain inflicted upon me dun really matter.. i feel so numb.. and whether the inflictors wants that forgiveness also dun really matter.. i will give if ppl ask for it.. but i dun really think ppl acty care abt reconciliation, tt they acty feel bad that they have hurt someone badly.. tt ppl are just selfish. that they are able to just move on with life, living in the denial that their actions is forgiven simply coz God has forgiven. that coz they dun mean it, they can skip the apology or not do anything or put in any effort to make up for tt hurt caused to someone.. and just wished silently that the person they hurt will be able to move on well, to forget abt the hurt so tt it'll make them feel better.. at least wout guilt..

i should be happy for the person i love, love with the love of christ, yes.. but yet not totally.. coz there's always tt bitterness tt's not reconciled in my heart.. and it feels like the inflictor will never know, or at least pretend not to know how much they've hurt someone and how the hole can be mend only by the inflictor asking for forgiveness and reconciliation.. and maybe the person dun really even bother..
maybe they dunnno how much they've hurt someone. tt everything's alright alrdy.. maybe? tt's easy to think. to convince myself tt's the reason for everything. tt ppl acty care. they just are ignorant. tt they think rs will be reconciled simply by doing nothing about the hurt they've caused.. but i dun expect ppl to come and ask for forgiveness anymore.. and i dun want to talk abt it anymore.. coz it's making my talk and tears so cheap.. tt nothing's done even after saying so much.. dun need to try too hard when the other person is not even trying... find my rest in God.. i cant undstd when ppl comfort me by saying tt ppl only go to the extreme only coz they care.. yet i dun think it's right.. yet i cant convince myself.. "yes, people are hurting me simply coz they care abt me and is afraid of losing me..." it's bullshit. it's just to make the situation feel better.. and for me not to lose the hope in humanity.. i find it hard to even convince myself, esp when it's all inaction from the inflictor..

i think i have been hurt in such ways, i m numb. i find myself doing the same to those who care abt me..

u say i have to form walls around me to protect myself.. coz i m God's precious chid.. i dunno how..
how to form walls yet still love and forgive all those who have hurt me..
i cant feel how much it hurts u even though i know it hurts very much...
i read ur entry even though u deleted it..i feel sad to know tt u r hurt coz of me yet i cant really feel how sad i really feel..
i can kind of undstd why people want to slash themselves.. hoping that physical pain can allow them to feel sth.. to feel some deep emotions which they have lost..
maybe tt's the thick wall i m talking about? i dun purposely put it there. yet it's just there, formed over time, over too much hurts and disappointments in life.. 
u ask me to stop pushing u away.. but really i dun think i m worth ur wait?
i dun even know what i want..
i m not even treasuring u for who u r. u r right. i may just be treasuring the comfort u r giving rather than who u r..
and u deserve better.. just like how i know i deserve better too..
but i deserve better so tt u deserve worse? i dun think it's right..
no u dun expect anything. but do u really think i can live in the ignorance of knowing u r giving so much and i m giving so little..
u r putting in lots of effort. but i m not..
i m really just like u say, wanting to stay in my own comfort zone..
i mind what ppl think and say..
and i want to avoid tt..
how to explain alot of things, i dun want to.. yet i want to be accountable..
and i am not willing to step out of my comfort zone..
i just want to live in ignorance and not confront things..
coz things are easier tt way..
breakthrus to come, i m not convinced.. and it's hard to pray sth which i m not convinced of..
i need to make decisions. i need to have faith. faith is nothing wout actions.. all those i know..
but i cant apply..
what if i m not the kind of girl u r looking for.. i m much more cowardy..
i dun want to confront alot of things in my life..
i m tired of confronting them, of trying so hard and with no results, nothing changed. everything the same..
what if one day i walk away from God? i dont want u to walk away from Him coz of me..
i dun want u liking me to draw u away from God in any sense..
tt's why i should not be in a ranking with God.. God should not be ur no.1 but ur only one. tt's why u should be okay even wout me in ur life..

there are ppl who care much more abt u. but not me. i m selfish too, just like every other ppl who i think r.. i only care abt myself and my own needs.
u cry over me.. abt what u r afraid u cant give me..
i dun think abt what i cant give u and work on myself..
on how i can love u better and i dun cry over it..
i m just exploring and evaluating u..
i m selfish. i only love myself..

am i really willing to give up everything i have right now in my life and start from scratch with u to overcome all the persecutions? tt would only mean i must love u very much too.. and tt nth matters but the fight for love.. and tt love would stand thru all the obstacles.. and the tot becomes even more real when u put it down in words and the tot scares me. coz u r so serious yet i m so unsure.. i see how imperfect i m.. i think about it.. am i willing to give up all that i have for love? will i still love God when i have nothing in life.. when he takes away everything from me, like what he did to Job? will i? maybe i m materialistic too..

i dunno..
i know how destructive this is..
but for now i just want to be selfish..
and to take a step at a time.. 
maybe over time, tots and feelings will become clearer
God's plan will become clearer...
i m sorry..

rained @ 1:41 PM