Anything I've ever done that ultimately was worthwhile... initially scared me to death. -Bender Betty
It's funny how the quote I wrote to encourage my tuition kids ended up encouraging me instead.
Fear causes one to escape, but faith activates and love motivates!! If today is the last day you know you might live before meeting Jesus, how would you spend it? Would you have thought about certain things and made certain decisions differently?
I experience it today, some friend told me about possibility of tsunami hitting Singapore by tomorrow morning. I cried a bucket. Not because of fear of death, but because there's so many things I have yet to complete here on this earth, my family has not yet known Jesus! And i still want to marry zc and give birth to children. It's not like I am not scared to about the reality of marriage and moving to a new stage of life, it scares me to death. I am not getting married anytime soon, but I guess transitions force people to have to think about the future. And people generally don't like changes and prefer to stay at status quo. But status quo is bad, cos it causes us to avoid changes because of fear of uncertainties that lie ahead of us. But changes are necessary in life, for growth, for people. I think I tend to avoid/put off having to think about things I feel uncomfortable about. It's okay for me to do that if I am alone, but because I am not, for me to do that would be harmful to zc. No wonder 2 has to become 1, because the life of 1 would affect the life of the other.
I am reminded by God that whatever uncertainty life after uni holds, there may be bills to pay, parents to support, a different life to anticipate, but ultimately, to be able to live and breathe and to do God's work, that's the greatest blessing in life! Because that is what Jesus has done for us at the cross, to save us from death into life so that we may do His good works! so I needn't be worried about where to stay or what to wear, but seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added upon you. These verses became more real to me today.
So if you know that today is your last day what would you do? I chose to do God's work. To meet and love His people, to pray and trust my God, that He loves me so much, His plans will only be to prosper me, and not to harm me..
one life, i lay at your altar
one love, i have in you
touch me again
fill me as you hold
my outstretched hands
one word you know i will follow
one heart broken to you
use me again
your mercies follow me
for all my days
